Just had a really hard conversation with someone i really love ! Its so hard hurting people , probably best if i just dont fuck up in the first place . this is my plan from now on ! I now feel so much intense guilt that all i wanna do is try and explain myself although i know it wont make any difference , ive never wanted to turn back time so much & i’ve never regretted anything in my life until now , its easy to think ‘have no regrets’ but when you realise you ruined the best thing ever its hard to not regret it .

(i just wanna sit & hold your hand & cuddle you & make it better)

On a lighter note i went & got a new tattoo on my stomach yesterday , ( the one i posted before ) it was the most painful tattoo ive ever had but its also my favorite & means the most to me , props to ant for being a total babe and dealing with me being a wimp !

Tonight im chilling out , watching friends in bed , gunna have a nice long bath . work all day tomorrow then on thursday me & the girls are going to Glasgow . Its gunna be so funny because we’re going by coach & it takes over 9 hours and Charlottes turning 18 en route so its serious party times ahead . Cant wait to see sean again aswel .

I’ve also been spending alot of time with a new friend i made called Skye which is so nice . He’s a pisces which means he totally understands that im mentally unstable , its pretty sweet .

TIME FOR A BUBBLE BATH :) !